Am I the only one who rides this ride, several times a day? As a stay at home mom I wish I could say that I'm a "great" mom. But when one minute all I'm saying is "stop that", "no", "put that down & go play with something else" and being totally irritated TO "let's play kids", "I love you so much", "oh my babies"!!! It's a nightmare and frankly - I'm sick of it. It seems like there is so much to do each day to do the "right" things with your kids & I find I fall short of that every single day. I know it's impossible to do it all, and I should just do my best right? But does the to-do list ever get easier or dare I say - END! And then there's the lack of time for me issue. Not to mention the serious lack of sleep. I really believe staying home with my kids is the best job there is, but it's also the most stressful. There's no 9-5. No lunch break. No vacation or sick leave. It's constant. And when the kids go to bed, you're still on-call. And the thing that bothers me the most is that all the time I spend being evil mom I know I'm damaging my kids. They'll end up on one of those talk shows saying, "it's all because my mom was so mean to us growing up. I just never got over that." Ugh. Can you tell I need to vent :) It's funny because in 5 minutes I'll love my job again & everything will be honky-dory. Hence - an emotional roller coaster.
Jan 29, 2009
Emotional Roller Coaster
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
4 comments:
Aw I'm sorry, Alita! I obviously don't have experience in the kids department, but I think women all have emotional roller coasters just like, this whether it's with their husbands or their kids. I'm sure you're a wonderful Mom. You know you can take a break... get a baby-sitter and go on a special date with Brian :)
haha...I can only sit here and laugh because I was talking about this with Travis yesterday. I can be the most nagging mom ever and then once I finish getting the dinner in, I'm like...who wants to paint!! I just hope my kids turn out ok in the end and try to get more positives than negatives in there...the word is try...somedays that happens and somedays it doesn't. We need to hang out again, it was a good break for me when we did.
I'm right there with ya! I know just what you mean! I have been thinking about the damaging affect lately too. I'm sure that our mom's had little breakdowns every now and then too, and I don't remember being damaged to much:)! I think our kids will turn out just fine. I think that there are a lot of expectations for mom's theses days..it is hard to keep up. I know I love my kids, and I TRY and be a good loving example to them, but sometimes we just meltdown! Hang in there, and call when you need to vent! Oh p.s. I changed my blog to a private one, I will tell you why later.
It's actually a breath of fresh air to read people's feelings like this for me. Not because I am happy about what you are dealing with, but because I empathize 100%! I am still praying that I figure out how to do this three kid thing because once all the help is gone in a week and a half...I am on my own to figure it out!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! I know somehow we all survive, but I am scared to death of it! As for the being a great mom and being the worst mom thing...I got both those role's down pat! What matters is that we correct ourselves and have that desire to be better when we are not so great! I think as long as we stick to good standards and try and let the "good" mom in us stand out...that is what counts in the end. Hey and kids need direction and guidence...so if that means you are the "mean" mom sometimes...it's for their own good! You are doing a great job, I know it!!
Post a Comment